She has been gone for forty five years today; I don’t like this day; I find myself sad and somewhat troubled all day long. It is not like there is a new void in my life; it is just there is a void which has never been filled in forty five years. I have lived my life without her being a part of it; she did not witness my high school graduation, did not go to my wedding(s) was not there for the birth of my daughter (but I felt her spirit); has never met her grandchildren. She died at forty seven years old; without experiencing many of the joys of life on earth: I believe she is happy where she is now.
When God takes something away from you he gives you something back and he/she did. My dad married a wonderful woman who was at my graduation, at my wedding and has been a terrific grandmother to my daughter; she reveilles in her role as GG (great grandmother) to my grandson. Without the void of my mother; there would be no younger sister who I am extremely close with; we share laughs and good times.
So today just as I have done for forty five years; I will be a little taken back in my daily routine; a little more pensive; and think of what would have been; but mostly be grateful for what I have.
Hopefully one day I will meet her again and fill her in on the past forty five years.
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